A Lonely World?

Of moments spent scrolling through phones

coming across 'touchy' contacts

down the memory lane of life

a friend perhaps,

A relative being a classic case,

 lost love for many

that co-worker,mmmh!

… … … …

pausing in an indecisive trance

 to call or simply text,

to keep in touch or let it go.

A sad and quite rigorous activity

 every passing contact a reminder

Of loneliness becoming an integral part of us

trying hard to reach someone close

only to realize that there is no one.

No one to call in the middle of the night

 when counting sheep becomes a tiring affair.

Someone we can text out of the blue

chat on and on simply because

 they actually get your sense of humour!tihihi

Of nostalgic pauses about a time

when we had such a person but

along the meandering  road of life

they moved on or

 we just tossed them aside because

we had the 'miss independent syndrome'

and figured we had it all together or

 they did a mistake that is taking a lifetime to get over!

Sometimes I personally am stuck in the same rut,

whether to let the past go without oblivion or

 try to make amends,

to reach out to that difficult relative,

that friend that said nasty things about you,

that colleague who simply hates your guts for no reason or

 even a relationship that was somewhat meant to be.

Where do we draw the line

 of whether to leave things as they are and

 live with the 'what ifs' or

 to try and make things 'right' per say.

Sometimes we block people out of our lives,

open new Facebook accounts,

change phone numbers,

move churches and even cities,

quit jobs in an effort to avoid encounters,

people that we think we don’t need

only for it to dawn on us that

our lives are more fulfilled with them in it or

 that they need us more but

 we simply won't budge

so we carry on…

Margaret C Tanui